I guess I’ll be here for a while.
I messed up. And I’l take full blame because this isn’t about me. It’s not ever going to be about me so I must accept that. Because I care about you more than I do for myself. I’m sorry I got upset. But that doesn’t matter. I was just so tired of having my feelings pushed aside like they don’t matter, I didn’t realize those words came out. I just hated hurting in silence and I told myself I’d never let that happen because I never want to relive my past ever again.. But I guess I’m too stubborn to let myself repress my feelings again.
So I feel like you don’t miss me at all.
You just love making me look the bad guy don’t you? Accusing me of not caring and all this stupid shit. No. Just because you feel that way doesn’t mean I do. I know you’re just pushing me away now. And I really want to cry, but I shouldn’t. What’s the point. I don’t know. Where did this all go wrong? Was it something I did? Or didn’t do? Sorry for being so inexperienced. I can’t read your mind. I just wish I knew went on in yours. You’re making me unhappy right now. I feel like you’re just going to push me away even more and more as these days go by. And all I keep thinking about is that there’s probably another girl.
Ugh. Damn it. I should be used to this by now. I’ll always be temporary.